“Forgiveness means giving up all hope for a better past”

“Forgiveness means giving up all hope for a better past”. — Lily Tomlin

I was ignored and abused. Second best, second place always.

It took a working of the Holy Spirit to remove the knife from my hand.

I won't go back there...not for him, not for anyone.

I have forgiven all that I can

 those who should have protected me but betrayed me, 

I closed my eye against indulging hate and followed a higher calling...

It took years of reconditioning and genuinely dilligently following God

until one day I woke up and it was all gone. 

The pain

The fear

The tears

I came to terms with my past and my future was indeed a brighter for this

Will it happen again if I forgive now and forge ahead?

When will I decide, finally,...that I can not change what has happended and by reliving it all 

I can not hope to change it...

The past is yesterday, tomorrow is yet to be decided

ALL I HAVE IS NOW AND I CAN LIVE WITH THAT