I cried with joy when I found out that I was pregnant and then I cried because I wasn't sure if my husband could be the man I needed him to be. When I told him, he teared up and hugged me with joy and immediately made the promise that this time will be better...this time he would be faithful.
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Things have been going really really well. For Christmas he made me a jewellery box...he actually spent time on something that was for me. 3 years ago that would not have happened - he barely had time to buy me a chocolate, but he worked at that thing for hours and now it has become one of the strongest statements of how much his changed. I will treasure it forever...
His doing well. He goes the extra mile to be transparent in all that he does, his kinder and patient. Sexually, his more giving. He was honest enough to tell me that he "helps" himself perhaps once a month - which I immediately translated to mean 2 or 3 times, but he keeps it low so that our intimacy can grow and that my needs are met as well as his...a far cry from the man who used to touch himself in the shower so often that our sex life became an after thought.
But there will always be this thought in the back of my mind, that he says he can't be trusted and I am learning to make my peace with that. The idea that a good relationship can only exist in a relationship with a 100% trust isn't true. I think you can have a great relationship where you can trust yourself a 100% and maybe him...80% plus. He will never regain my full trust, but that is for the best.
Sooo, so far so good. Maybe this time will be different after all...
Stay strong and keep believing in yourself.
ReplyDeleteThanks Mildred!! I am at 7 months now and things are still going strong. His looking for a new job now, because his bored at current one- boredom is the kiss of death as leads to soooo many other things, so I am supporting him with that. Thank you so much for your encouragement, it means the world to me.
ReplyDeleteSuch a beautiful post, I want to share a testimony on how Dr itua healing herbs cure me.
ReplyDeleteThe worst time has passed”However, it is true that there are more improvements than before...because of the rising numbers of people living with HIV in the state of Nevada. How could they stigmatize all of them? Therefore everything becomes a little easier and we start to share everything... We also started to invite and visit each other in a community. You know, it is six years since I started taking antiretroviral drugs...Yet whatever problems I face, the worst time has passed
When I was evicted from the family home by my mother, my father rented a small room for me. But my mother and brothers believed that having HIV was my own fault – and that I deserved to be punished...I also considered myself unworthy and without hope... But I have a child and eventually I convinced myself to live for my child’s sake.
My mother knew nothing [about HIV]. She didn’t understand anything. Do you know why? She didn’t have [the chance] to go out of the house and communicate with society. However, my father does interact with the community. I know his friends are mature and dignified in africa america. So he has a better understanding than her.
My father came call me on a sadfull day sitting on my couch about a friend of his from africa who introduce him to Dr Itua herbal cure in africa in which he advise we should purchase his herbal medicine to cure my hiv so we did and Dr Itua prescribed I should drink the herbal medicine for two weeks to cure although we were so curious about the whole thing ,I finished the herbal medicine like he advised then he talked to me to visit my nearest clinic for check up I did and now I'm totally cured from Hiv my father was my rock and I and my family are now happy together also Dr Itua has be helpful in my community ever since he cure my Hiv and my tinnitus so why I'm leaving my story on here today is to reach out someone out here to hope on God and never give up no matter the situation you that you are facing especially through this pandemic seasons which has really taught us all on how we should be helpful to each other and cherish one another.
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